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Darkened Blue

 

Darkened Blue


Blue waters turn black 

I look to what I lack


Not material but decisions made

Wayward path, shifting ways

Dawning memory unfading

Remind me of the obsession remaining 


Sunrise sneaks up on the horizon

Winter’s blanket chill my soul

As I cower under bedroll


Warm my mind

To greet this day

Shine a new path for my way


Darkness fades and returns again

Sow your pain, unwanted friend

Lessons learned scars revealing 

Guide me to the path of healing


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